This has been a particularly stressful week...especially today. I have a TON to do at work with a deadline of the end of the day Friday, and it's taking its toll on me mentally, emotionally, and physically. I'm SOOO looking forward to the weekend.
What impacted me more than anything today, though, was Emma refusing to nurse this morning, and then again this afternoon. I guess it probably was an appetite thing and that I shouldn't take it personally (now knowing that she didn't eat from 3:30 a.m. until noon), but I really felt rejected....and robbed of the limited time with my girl. It's a strange phenomena.... no matter what, moms want to make sure their kids are fed. I know she won't starve if she misses a feeding now and then, but it just feels awful when it does happen. I was so relieved when she DID nurse some this evening.
She's asleep right now, and Jon is off with his small group, which gives me these moments to write.
At this time a year ago, I was pregnant but didn't know it yet. Weird.
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That certainly sounds strange, Laurie, Emma refusing to nurse. Did you have anything different to eat that might make your milk undesirable to her? I don't know about these things, but can extreme stress change the composition of a mother's milk? You're right, she certainly will not perish with missing a meal or two, but it makes one wonder about why she chose not to eat. Perhaps somone out there can give you a clue. Im sure you resorted to pumping, but if it's a case that your milk does not appeal to her, should you throw that batch away? Honey, this is only the first of many feelings of rejection--intentional or unintentional. You know she adores you. And like the good mother you are, you'll swallow the hurt and just keep on loving. The weekend will be here before you know it, and you and Emma can have your time once again.
Love you a whole bunch, Mom
I talked to Jennifer. She says stress can play a big part in how a baby nurses. She says they feel a mother's stress and tension and sometimes will pull back from nursing. She also said nursed babies have shifts in appetite, so I think you hit it on the nose--it's just an appetite thing.
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